I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I would do and how I would feel if I only had one year to live. I’ve been thinking about my priorities, and what I want to do versus what I need to do. It really changes the way you go abouts your day to day, when you think you only have one year to live. When you’re living as if you have one year to live. It changes how you view people, how you view the world, how you want to see the world. It changes what you think of your past, too. How amazing that is.

This morning, I am taking some time for myself, doing whatever I want to do without feeling guilty. I walked around in my pajamas for 2 hours, fooling around with my laptop, visiting websites of friends, updating facebook. I took an extra long shower, took an extra long time getting dressed, look an extra long time brushing my hair, smiled geekily at myself in the mirror after I brushed my teeth, and I took an extra long time getting dressed.

My hair is still wet, the music is blasted on from Gwen Stefani’s latest album “Sweet Escape.” How appropriate for my frame of mind. I’m creating my own sweet escape this morning. No rushing around, no thinking I’m late, no running errands, no calling clients back, no panicking about court dates and overdue paperwork. I’m just okay, here, alone, by myself, enjoying the company that has always been here: my own.

If I only had one year to live, I would make some time to simply live, gracefully, peacefully, calmly, and quietly.