Archive for June, 2007
June 5, 2007 at 9:25 pm · Filed under meme
I’ve been tagged by Teesa Weesa:
Each player lists 8 facts/habits about themselves. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed. At the end of the post, the player then tags 8 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.
8 things:
1. Before bed every night, I have to straighten all the blankets to have them square and even with each other before I can comfortably get into bed and sleep. Dave ruins it by morning every morning. 
2. My routine for pruning in the morning: shower, put eye drops in, brush teeth, wash face, put lotion on arms, then legs, brush hair, dry hair, undies on, clothes on. In that exact order, everyday.
3. I suck on my tongue while rubbing two finger together. I do this almost constantly, consistently. If you watch closely, you’d probably see me do it while I’m talking to you. ;P
4. I don’t like phones. I handle them well and I have great phone etiquette, but I don’t like them. Especially at home. Sometimes I go into an invisible, small, short panic attack when it rings at home.
5. When I was a younger teen, I was giving my baby sister a piggyback ride when I tripped on the sidewalk and fell face first into the concrete pavement. I broke my right front tooth in half. My arms were still holding onto her, so I wasn’t able to block my fall with my arms/hands.
6. I have gotten better with verbal communication. I used to hate it, and would always prefer written communication. I think my job required me to get comfortable with my voice. Literally.
7. I used to be painfully shy. You’d never know it when meeting me, though. I was afraid of speaking up in class, raising my hand, answering a question, even speaking up in a small group of friends. I was always the invisible follower. Not anymore though!
8. I love bread. Bread bread bread. I must have some sort of bread-type food at least once a day.
Tagging: Candice, Kelly, Jen, Ciana, Mike, Bryan, and everyone else who wants to do this cuz I honestly can’t think of 8 people.
June 5, 2007 at 8:13 am · Filed under one year
I haven’t been very diligent with my “one year” category. To explain it a little, in case you are a new reader to this blog, “one year” is a project that I decided to take on when I heard Marita talk about it in yoga. Marita is my yoga teacher. The “one year” project is when someone decides to live their life as if there is only one year left to live. Priorities shift, and perspectives change. I decided to give it a shot.
Admittedly, living as if there is only one year left to live has proven to be harder than I thought. I am still doing the day-to-day things that I’ve always done, that aren’t of the greatest importance, really. Except I know that these things would benefit my future years to come. Yes, years to come. If I were truly to be living as if I only have one year left, I probably would quit my job, cash out my retirement fund that I’ve been saving up, and just chill for the rest of the year and live out my years travelling with Dave, writing letters and wills, saying sorry to those I may have wronged, giving gratitude and love to those I was angry with. I would probably start getting pregnant right away so that I know I’m giving a beautiful gift back to this world that has been so good to me.
Living “one year” means to breathe life in as fully as possible everyday, to take risks that may not have been taken before, to smile more often and leave a wanted legacy. When I die, I don’t want to be remembered as merely a woman, or even a therapist. I want to be remembered for the intentions that I gave forth. I want to be remembered for the people I love and those who love me in return. I want to live on through their smiles. I want to be remembered for the lives I’ve affected.
It is to live intentionally, without regret, without fear. I am doing that more, but probably not as much as I would like to. Weeks get busy and I find myself already planning for the next day when my head hits the pillow. For the next year, my task is to sleep with grace, sleep with fulfillment. Sleep as if tomorrow will never come.
June 2, 2007 at 9:47 am · Filed under daily
So the first part of PCIT training went really, really well. The first day was kind of iffy, but the second day went awesome. I think the more hands-on we got, the more comfortable everyone got with PCIT. It stands for “Parent-Child Interaction Therapy.” Basically, I (along with my colleagues who attended the training) were being trained on how to do PCIT. It is teaching parents how to better interact with their non-compliant and disruptive children on a more appropriate level that enhances positive attention and decreases negative attention. These are some really awesome skills that have been researched to be extremely successful for all types of people and families.
Next Thursday and Friday I go back for the second part, which will talk about the part for parent-lead interactions, I think. I’m rather looking forward to it. I like getting training to do new things. Continuing education kicks ass!
June 1, 2007 at 10:17 pm · Filed under thoughts
Thank you, so much, for all your wonderful support in my previous entry. It is great to know I am heard when I blog here and people support me. I am lucky to have wonderful people in my life, and I am even luckier that they let me know they support me. 
Again, thank you.
These last few days have been a little rough on me. At the risk of sounding melodramatic (because we all know — well, I do and some of you do, anyway — how good I am at being melodramatic from time to time!), I’m going to say this: the next few months/years will be hard on me and my family. I am trying to muster as much positive energy as I can in preparation for this and I don’t know how I will be able to do it without your continuing love and support throughout this crazy time in my life. I’m consciously giving something up that I don’t want to give up, but in the end it may be something healthy for me. I don’t want to go into details because I want to keep it relatively sacred from prying eyes and ears.
I was talking to my good friend and coworker Martha today. She helped me gather my thoughts together. It is good to have girlfriends. Basically, the only people I talked to about this today were my girlfriends and Dave. After hearing myself talk for a while (like, actually hearing my own voice and what I was saying — does that ever happen to you?), I realized I was leading to a decision in my life.
I just now have to live with that decision when the time comes.
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