Archive for February, 2008
February 26, 2008 at 7:07 am · Filed under daily, thoughts
So I woke up to my darling baby girl kicking for breakfast. It’s the most awesome feeling in the world. Ever held a fish in your hand, and feel it wiggle and move anxiously before you put it back into the water? It’s almost like that feeling, but a thousand times more awesome, if you can believe it. I have a very early day today (as you can tell by the ridiculous time on this post). I just finished breakfast, and I have to get ready for my 7:30am school meeting for a client. 7:30am should cease to exist. The world should be fast asleep at 7:30am (including our beautiful Baby Bean!!), but alas, some people think it’s wonderful meeting and discussing important issues like the educational system and how it affects ADHD and bipolar disorder at 7 friggin’ 30 in the morning. I hope I’ll be lucid enough to give my two cents.
Today is also my prenatal yoga class. I find that it is useful in helping me relax and feel less anxious about the worries I have, but at the same time I really miss the hardcore yoga stuff I used to do, like the assisted head stands and the wheel and stuff like that. I was never one to get into the conventional means of exercise, like running on a treadmill or anything like that. Yoga all the way. I can’t wait to be doing Mama and Me yoga with Baby Bean when she’s born. Already a yogini in the womb, she will love it in the big world.
February 25, 2008 at 9:23 pm · Filed under heart, thoughts
Body image and self image are such big factors in today’s world. In the world of celebrity worshipping, how we see ourselves makes such a big difference in who we are and what we do on a daily basis. There are beautiful people plastered everywhere on the front pages of magazines and on the big and small screen — it’s hard not to look at them when you’re buying groceries. New and improved ways to lose weight that goes beyond just diet pills and exercise are always the headline topic of the week. It’s amazing how we don’t get more little girls trying to look like barbie dolls these days.
As if you haven’t figured it out yet (and I’m sure most of you have with the minor slip-ups in various entries), Dave and I are having a baby GIRL. The excitement of this is overwhelming. There are so many happy hopes that come to mind right now. Dave said she will be a strong girl who knows the difference between right and wrong, and will protect the innocent and stand up for what she believes in (aka: stubborn like her Daddy). Dave said he knows I will teach her how to be a strong woman in today’s tough world, and how to hold her head up high and be brave when the world abuses her. I said that she will be beautiful and loving and kind, able to see all perspectives, like her daddy will teach her. What I’m afraid of, though, is a time when she will ask us if she is beautiful and why she doesn’t look like the celebrities on her magazine covers. We will tell her she’s the most gorgeous creature in the world, but whether or not she will believe us, given the time and age we are raising her in, is troublesome to me. I want our little girl to realize that she’s gorgeous inside and out, no matter who she looks like or doesn’t look like, how much she weighs, how tall she is, what color her hair is, or how brightly white her teeth is. It makes me want to move all of us to a remote island where there exists no mirrors and no tv and no Glamour magazines. It makes me want to protect her from the harsh world that will do all it can to shun and poke and prod her delicate soft innocence. It makes me want to protect her from all of that.
I remember what it was like growing up as a teenage girl, gawky and having people tell me I’m ugly because I’m too this or too that. I remember holding it all in. I don’t want her to hold it all in. I want her to believe us when we tell her she’s the greatest gift this earth has ever offered humanity.
February 25, 2008 at 9:14 pm · Filed under daily, heart, thoughts
You know what one of the best things about my job is? It is when I really meet some awesome clients. I love when I actually like my clients as people. It really makes a difference in helping them and wanting to work with them. It makes the day go by so quickly. Today, Jenbug and I had our final session with a client who we’ve really grown to like over the past 6 months. I can’t believe it’s been 6 months since we first started working with him. I told him at the end of the session today, “Hey, I know you said you don’t like counselors or counseling, but I just wanted you to know that what we’ve been doing is counseling.”
He grinned back and said, “I figured.” Heh. We told him he was one of our favorite people to work with, and he said we were one of his favorite people too. Aawwww. Hey, if concrete changes weren’t able to be made, at least we made a difference in how he sees therapy and counseling, and at least he found some people he can trust. Maybe this will be the seed planted for when he’s ready for more.
Some people just touch you. This is why I do what I do. Sometimes it’s not even me helping anyone. Sometimes it’s me realizing how we’re all the same at the end of the day.
February 24, 2008 at 9:33 pm · Filed under daily
So I’m actually watching the Oscars. I haven’t in a few years, but I am a fan of Juno (even though I haven’t actually watched it yet — this is a first for me to be into a movie I haven’t actually seen). Ellen Page was really awesome in “Hard Candy,” which was the first movie Dave and I saw her in, and after that, I’ve become a fan. It’s only a matter of time when she wins an Oscar. Go Canadian girly! Hehe. Too bad she didn’t win the Best Actress category tonight. Oh well, next time, Ellen! Next time!! Hopefully Juno will win the Best Picture category. We’ll see.
It’s driving Dave nuts, though. He hates anything that glamorizes celebrities this way. It’s equivalent to mowing golf courses in Cleveland golf clubs for him. He’s been nagging and whining for me to change the channel. Just a few more categories until the Best Picture, husband, I promise!
Okay, I didn’t get much work done this weekend. Just lots of cleaning and fooling around and being all giggly over our ultrasound of Baby Bean. That news takes precedence over all others, apparently.
February 23, 2008 at 8:53 pm · Filed under daily
Well, today was rather fruitful. The most exciting part of it was cleaning the kitchen and organizing the shelves there. I remember back in the day when going on a field trip to see a couple of Delta machinery was really exciting, but those days are gone. Now, a clean house and a laptop make me happy. Ah, the simple things in life, huh.
My belly is growing and growing, and it’s the only thing I can do to concentrate on anything else other than my beautiful Baby Bean. I can’t wait until the day I am able to hold Bean in my arms. Seeing the ultrasound photos was just so miraculous. Dave said it just makes it seem that much more real. He has this permanent silly grin on his face, thinking about meeting his “Daddy’s little ___” for the first time. Hehe.
February 23, 2008 at 11:08 am · Filed under daily
Wow, this week has been a whirlwind. I’ve worked so much this month, I hardly have any time to do anything else. Part of it has to do with all the clients who are finally back in town from the holidays and actually want to work with me again. Another part has to do with me wanting to make up those hours that I went under from the holidays and the honeymoon and stuff. I hardly had any time this week to update you guys on what’s been going on.
Most of it has been the same old stuff — work, come home, sleep. You know the drill. The most exciting part of our week has been the 20-week ultrasound appointment we had yesterday. Read the results and stuff at Bean’s site. We also found out the sex of Baby Bean, but if you want to know, you’ll have to take the questionnaire first and the answer will be revealed to you afterwards. All the results will be printed out and put in Bean’s baby book. There was one ultrasound photo in which Bean was doing an awesome shoulder stand yoga pose. I thought it was so awesome. My little yoga baby already!
Ah, welcome, Saturday, how I’ve missed thee!!!
February 21, 2008 at 6:32 am · Filed under daily
Well, I honestly cannot believe that I’m actually up at 6 am. I realize it’s now 6:32 am, but you’ll have to trust that I’m not lying when I say I’ve been up for a whole half hour. It started with Dave waking up and I didn’t want him to be late because he forgot to set his alarm clock. So then I put my hand on my tummy and I felt Bean kick me a good morning sign. Then I realized I was hungry and needed to go to the bathroom (though not in that order). So I got up, went to the bathroom, and then got a bowl of cereal.
At 6am. Will pregnancy craziness ever cease to amaze me? 
I suppose this is a good thing and something that I should get used to. In other news, I have grown to 82 centimeters around my belly. When I first started, I was only something like 77 or 78 centimeters around. I appear to be gaining at least one centimeter per week in the last month. It’s really crazy. I think I have the cutest little belly bump EVER, man. Hehehe.
February 17, 2008 at 1:57 pm · Filed under daily, thoughts
Amazingly enough, I’ve been gaining weight. Woohoo! It’s so hard for me to gain that I was afraid my prenatal visit would say I didn’t, or worse yet, if I had actually lost weight. For me, to lose weight is a whole lot easier than to gain weight. Since November, I’ve gained 8 pounds, and that is mostly the baby. However, I would also like to think that I’m getting some more meat on my bones, and that a bit of those poundages are added to me in general, and not taken up all by Bean. Heh. I’ve been eating like a pig. Nonstop. During the weekdays I feel like such a cow, often having two lunches. Last Friday I got all pissy at Jenbug for refusing to go out for a second lunch with me. Heh. I bet this week will be like that too. I’m 19 weeks this week, and next week will mark my halfway point through the pregnancy. I’m not as big as I’d like to be, and I can’t wait for when that happens.
I’ve finally cleaned the whole house this weekend, with the exception of one last load of laundry and vacuuming (since we don’t have our robo vac). Dusted, cleaned the bathrooms, the kitchen, the living room. Woo. Not bad at all!
February 16, 2008 at 10:35 am · Filed under daily
I think Dave and I need a vacation. It would be lovely to just go away for a while, perhaps to a resort area where everything is beautiful and lovely and we’re pampered to the max. Maybe something like at the Branson property. I think we’re both overworking and tired, anticipating the arrival of our beautiful Baby Bean. We’re already hard working parents, and the little bugger hasn’t even popped out of my uterus yet. Hehe.
We’re in the process of looking for a Wii console. Can you believe that it’s sold out EVERYWHERE? I think we may have to order it online now, since none of the stores north OR south of the Peach Arch border sells it. We’ve been calling for days and it’s sold out everywhere. Literally. I don’t like when companies do that — make the supply low so the demand can increase. I just want to play with the Wii damn it. Is that so hard to ask?!
It’s Saturday and I have “cleaning” written all over my brain. Dave said he will help me vacuum today, so I’m excited for that. We’re still waiting for our robo vacuum to be delivered. Probably early next week. In the mean time, our house is collecting dust like crazy. We’re a pretty dusty family, apparently? I don’t know how two adults and a cat can collect this much dirt in such a short time. What the heck.
February 10, 2008 at 7:04 pm · Filed under daily
Our living room and BBB’s baby room look like a tornado just hit them. It’s because in our living room, we’re trying to get rid of a whole bunch of old receipts, bills, etc. that are no longer needed. I got us a nifty heavy-duty paper shredder (that also shreds credit cards and cds), so for the past week or so, I’ve been busy putting stuff into it to shred. Four big trash bags of shredded paper later, I still don’t feel like I’ve made a dent in our hoarded computer room (which will be BBB’s room). This is ridiculous.
On top of that, we still have to finish decorating both recently renovated bathrooms with some awesome chrome accessories. That will come in due time, but they’re not my priority right now. My priority is to get BBB’s room emptied out so we can start painting and designing the room, and to get all this old filing junk cleaned up and organized. I want to turn the other bedroom into an office/crafts area, with a fouton for guests whenever someone stays over. That will take some time. Thankfully, Dave and I will both be on “maternity” leave after the baby gets here, so I’ll have a good chunk of time to clean house, at least.
This all sounds fascinating, I know. To keep y’all busy while I ramble on, check out Bean’s new design. I drew the duck myself!
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