The weather is getting really really cold. Days like these make me want to stay home and cuddle up with the husband and the baby and just have hot cocoa and play peekaboo. That sounds like a perfect day. And maybe while she’s napping, have a good book cuddled up by the fire. Or take a nap too.

That sounds even better. Heh.

Work is going well, though I am being kept busy. It feels weird going back to work and being in “work mode.” It feels like my life has changed completely, and yet I’m still doing some of the old things I used to do, like doing therapy work and meeting with clients and going to staff meetings and going to court and all that stuff. It’s not a bad feeling, it’s just a really different feeling. The other day Dave and I were talking to Lily Bean and we told her that once upon a time, not too long ago even, we were on our own before she came into our lives. Neither of us remember what it was like before she came along. Dave concluded that he and I must have just sat in the dark staring at each other because looking back now, life seemed pretty dreary and dark without her. And yet, I remember that at the time, I was happy too. But I can’t imagine being any happier than I am now, if you know what I mean. This current feeling of happiness doesn’t compare to the happiness before her: it was almost like just knowing one side of a coin. Now we know both sides and looking back, that one side feels almost incomplete. How did we not know there was another side to happiness? How did we miss it before?

Things have changed, and yet, some things have not. Going to work, and coming home. I suddenly wear a new hat. The Mommy hat. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.