Sometimes, oh just sometimes, I wish I had 2 extra hours in the day to do whatever I want. “Whatever I want” would mostly consist of writing emails back to friends and family, and updating blogs and making new designs. Yeah. Remember back in the day when I whipped up a new layout like I change underwear? Yeah, every single day (in case you’re wondering how often I change underwear). Yeah, that was pre-full-time-job and pre-baby. You got lots of time to make crazy layouts and even code them all in a day or less when you’re still in school and don’t have a baby. Now, just blogging seems like a task to me. And I also feel like I’ve lost touch with a lot of my friends, both online and offline. I think I’m still adjusting to having a baby. How do single mothers do it? How do parents with more than one baby do it? They must be whacked out of their minds, I imagine! Or martyrs. Yes, martyrs. Superheroes.
I have new respect for parents. And that’s big, because I always had a lot of respect for parenthood — especially working in the field I work in, where I see parents lose their children everyday. But anyway…
Lately, there have been some ups and downs, and many I do not want to share with the public. Only a few know. I know the pattern I am repeating — when things get serious and chaotic in my life, I tend to hide and not open up. Not even to some of my closest friends and family. I’m trying not to do it this time around, but I already feel myself doing it. It’s not that I’m in crisis or anything — just a whole bunch of stuff happening at once, and some of them leave me terrified for the future, and others leave me very excited. Maybe I’ll be more open to divulging what I’m talking about later on. Or maybe not. Maybe I just need a getaway vacation at Branson or something. Those vacation packages are really, really tempting. I think we will have to plan a family vacation sometime soon, to get away from “it all,” whatever “it all” is at this time. We’ve seen several vacation packages before, but the Branson ones seem most appealing.
