Balancing Act
I’m having a hard time keeping up with my blogs. I remember back in the day when I had 3 million things to do everyday, such as a full-time job, and graduate school (which was seriously the most challenging thing I’ve done until I had a baby), and getting married, planning a wedding, moving, etc. Even during all of those periods in my life, I was still able to keep up with all my blogging. It wasn’t hard to do. I always had time, or always made time, to write in my sites because that was what kept me sane. My passion for writing never really left.
Until, well, until I had a baby. Suddenly, priorities shifted, and taking care of myself came second. I’m still balancing what it means to be my own woman and a wife and a mother all at the same time. Some days I think I have it down pat, and other days I feel like I’m struggling. What a big life change this has become. I mean, I always knew that, going into motherhood, but wow. I didn’t actually realize it until I was in the depths of it, y’know? I love this little bundle of joy so much that sometimes my body actually vibrates from all this love. And then before I know it, I’ve forgotten to eat, forgotten to sleep well, forgotten to do yoga (since October — ugh), etc.
I am absolutely, horridly jealous of Dave that he can stay home with Lily like this. I feel like I am missing out so much. However, I am also absolutely ecstatic that he has this time with her because the bond that he’s getting with her, just the two of them, is something so magical to witness. She just laughs and lights up when he enters the room. Before I went back to work full time, Lily’s world just consisted of “Mommy”… and now that Daddy takes care of her during the day for 4 days a week, she’s expanded that world to include him, and I love seeing how much trust she has in him, how much love she has for him, and how much excitement is in her eyes when she sees him. Nothing else warms a mother’s heart as much as seeing her child bond with her daddy.
(Are people already thinking of Black Friday sales? It’s not even summer yet!)
